This summer I took a Sabbatical from teaching Sunday school. Matt and I used our open-ended weekends to travel some more and get to know some other people in Greenville. We started teaching again last week, and I’ve been apprehensive about taking on the responsibility and commitment again. Additionally, we began using a new curriculum that is completely different from what I’d been using for the past four and a half years. Instead of teaching a story and a verse and singing songs, I have a series of five to six activities that lead up to the children’s church lesson that follows. The past two weeks of Sunday school have been a delightful learning experience for me! I hope my little five-year olds are getting as much from the lesson as I am. Yesterday we focused on the creation of man and how we are made in God’s image.
Matt had been sick and I knew from experience that the best way to get him feeling normal again would be to get him outside. He and a friend had talked about going to the zoo, so he asked him if he’d want to try to go to the Columbia zoo for a couple hours. We could not have asked for better weather for a car ride and the zoo. The sky was that vivid primary blue that marks the end of the white heat and the beginning of the cool fall. The air has lost it’s humidity but it’s still mild enough for short sleeves, flirty skirts and sandals.
I’ve been to the zoo many times in my life, but between the weather, the significance of Sunday and the Sunday school lesson I was struck with new thoughts. We were standing in the exotic bird display, and I couldn’t tear my gaze away from some beautiful blue parrots. I wanted to take a picture, but there was no way to do that without catching the wire mesh separating me from them. With the account of creation still fresh in my mind, I began to think on what it would be like if we could be that close to breathtakingly beautiful birds without a cage containing them. How sad that sin has put so many barriers in our lives. The friend who was with us has made some imperfect decisions recently and hurt us and others. Respecting his privacy, we’ve never questioned his behavior; but I have a list of questions in my diary that I would like to ask. I will never know why he was so rude to me all in the name of "teasing." I’ll never know why he broke my best friend’s heart. I’ll never know why he completely disappeared for four month in spite of the hours Matt had invested in their friendship. And, I’ll never get to experience blue parrots without constraints.
I’m slowly realizing that this is yet the consequences of my sin. And God’s grace is greater than all of it. Closure is waiting us in heaven. On this side of paradise, I will content myself with birds in cages and unanswered questions.